Honest

All of my life

In functional freeze

Shut down

To seek safety

Searching in others

For what was

Stolen by others

First a parentified child

Then reluctant adult

Unconscious manipulating

Behaviours and patterns

It's shocking to have

A conversation with

Your secret self

Discover past behaviours

But be kind

All these things

Were to keep

The system from

Fracturing

Slowly or is it quickly

Integration is occurring

My anger is present

Who knew how good

It could feel

Now I am no longer

Resisting it

It flows safely

This emotion

That in others had

Made me feel

Scared, dirty, ashamed

Now in me there is

A tingling under my skin

Like standing in a gentle hailstorm

Washing me clean